sometimes, leaving doesn't needs goodbye.^^
may 21 2009, thursday,
hahas im limping and walking around sku everyday from today onwards cause i tink i sprained both my legs, could be that or muscle cramps, my left and right leg, everytime i move them it hurts, sit down or stand up pain , haizz, interclass basketball is like no one remember, i tried so much to be realise, not even giving up in that 1min where a miracle happen, guess wat, my best friends and familys cant be less bothered with me, what... am i really playing for? when i was elbowed at the heart, i pulled my self up, knowing that my legs can no longer carry me, knowing that i might die playing, i pushed my self up... wei jie broke his arms, today saw him in cast... hahas i could be lying in the hospital now, now thinking about it makes me look stupid inside, i hang on so that my best friends can see im doing it for them, so that my family would be proud of me, nothing happened... winning? did i really win? or isit.. only on the surface did i win... that last 3min in the game, which i force myself to do... isit... really worth it? thinking about it... yongqin and chee pang and everyone keep asking me ue ok marhs. i tink they can tell im forcing my movements, i nearly passed out. luckily i didnt, actually pass out or no pass out, it doesnt matter anymore, i seem to be drifting further and further away from everyone, in fact the world, hahas i went home 1 hour after sku today, lied on my sofa while playing the com, for like 30mins and i went to lied on my bed, with absolutely no aim in wat im doing and no idea, wat im doing... i told ue guys.. 1 day ue'll leave me, ue dun believed at first, now do ue?.. next moment ue noe... im forgotten. Seeing wence and kaze patching up after a so called quarreling session. cold war i tink, i tink wence just need something to affirm tat his right. so happy for them. looking at everyone, they seem to have found their purpose or wat they wanna do in life, i seem to have lost all of them... all. maybe 1 day, even my memories will leave me..
hahas im limping and walking around sku everyday from today onwards cause i tink i sprained both my legs, could be that or muscle cramps, my left and right leg, everytime i move them it hurts, sit down or stand up pain , haizz, interclass basketball is like no one remember, i tried so much to be realise, not even giving up in that 1min where a miracle happen, guess wat, my best friends and familys cant be less bothered with me, what... am i really playing for? when i was elbowed at the heart, i pulled my self up, knowing that my legs can no longer carry me, knowing that i might die playing, i pushed my self up... wei jie broke his arms, today saw him in cast... hahas i could be lying in the hospital now, now thinking about it makes me look stupid inside, i hang on so that my best friends can see im doing it for them, so that my family would be proud of me, nothing happened... winning? did i really win? or isit.. only on the surface did i win... that last 3min in the game, which i force myself to do... isit... really worth it? thinking about it... yongqin and chee pang and everyone keep asking me ue ok marhs. i tink they can tell im forcing my movements, i nearly passed out. luckily i didnt, actually pass out or no pass out, it doesnt matter anymore, i seem to be drifting further and further away from everyone, in fact the world, hahas i went home 1 hour after sku today, lied on my sofa while playing the com, for like 30mins and i went to lied on my bed, with absolutely no aim in wat im doing and no idea, wat im doing... i told ue guys.. 1 day ue'll leave me, ue dun believed at first, now do ue?.. next moment ue noe... im forgotten. Seeing wence and kaze patching up after a so called quarreling session. cold war i tink, i tink wence just need something to affirm tat his right. so happy for them. looking at everyone, they seem to have found their purpose or wat they wanna do in life, i seem to have lost all of them... all. maybe 1 day, even my memories will leave me..
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