memories still flows in the rivers and eventually they led to the seas.

october 13 2008 monday, church on sat super fun but when sunday morning came, i couldnt remember why i was in bed, i didnt know how i got home, jus lost all of it, the last part of it was me alighting the bus i was in with marcus, then i cannot remember anything, was depressed, dom came, and ask me sayin tat i look emo, guess i cant be help, but i was coughin the whole morning and was having random chest pain thoughs, haha guess age is catchin up wif me, i didnt of cause let that take me down, i found back my spirit when pastor lia said her mother pass away the day before which is sat, at around 10, its sad, she's my spiritual mother's mother, when she was talkin about her tears just kept rolling down my eyes, yea i know, im a guy i shouldnt cry tat easily but actually, im quite fragile, something small could affect me so big, its just tat i didnt want anyone to know cause people get annoyin when they care too much for ue, its better to let secrets remain as secrets, who knows, someday secrets might leaked out even ue told ur best friend and i know the BEST example, im not going to say HER name, i will jus be waging wars with young girl's around my age, waste of time, haiz yaya i didnt know why i was crying, but i know something, a friend of mine once told me this before he past on, " injuries of the body can always heal, its just the matter of time, but injuries of the heart can never be heal, they dun have ointment or treatment for tat, and they will forever affect ue, or the slightest event happening around ue might triggered it," tats why we have people who are so called REN GE FEN LIE, ( personality split ) this kind of people although is 1 person, but tat 1 person is living a 2 people's live, and they have no impression or memory of the second person in their life, its sad because if they cannot recall things they will go on a rampage, haiz ya, reali am sry for her, i am tinkin of attendin her wake on wed night since thurs is holiday for S.A. sighs, maybe i will go barhs, then got hangout was super cool coz it was the first time i saw EuGENE!! ON SUN SERVICE!!! ( wayne lim's older brother ) and ya wayne told me it was sad cause eugene use to be super onfire untill all his close friends left and backslided, i promise, as his new close friend! i will never anbandon him! ( actually now new arhs, i know him for about 8~9months liao and he's super cool ) i use to make this promise to a close friend tat i will never anbandon the crew, but i had to, to success i had to, but i was wrong, wat is success when no one is there to celebrate it wif ue? haha i guess all 9 of us should went to get it, .... haiz its all the past now, hahas, went home, ya today woke up like an ass, barely awake though bathe watch naruto ALL THE WAY until go church do BM, sians this time it was SUPER boring though, haiz it was suppose to be fun though, some idiot jus have to spoil it, BAKKA! went home had dinner wif uncle at home, AH MAH COOKS FOR A ARMY CAMP haha she cook so much like she feedin a army hahas, then wen to watch naruto and bathe and ya, take the remain like 10mins i decide to spent to blog and visit blogs, hahas tomorrow is a spoiler got the peter tay lesson, ass, he spoils my week, damn i think i will wage war with him tomorrow, memories eventually add up and speed up and will eventually lead to the seas, someone or something eventually has to go somewhere, haha i know where im going, do ue?