september 29 2008,monday
todays is boring as usual, but something been bothering me ever since the weekend, things jus not rite, went to sku, when half way i realise nvr bring tie, i walk back took it, went to sku, i realise being someone isnt my Forte anymore, haha FORTE (pronounce as 4-teh) haha ya, just a blink 2years past since my p5 career, 1 year pass before the so quickly, im turing 14 lerhs, im missing my junior sku years in the music room, everyday back then was fun, no one could stop me, but times change, people change, i realise in the midst of distraction, the people i grew up with are changing, guess tat is wat expect, a bird has to fly sooner or later, you will have to let go, time pass so fast in school today, i barely asleep or tired, i just find it hard to let go of my childhood now, like people say to me, your childhood is a disaster, but your next generation, do not allow it to happen, im beginning to quit vulgarities, havent use it for 5 days lerhs, next thing i nid to learn is the ability to give in, my family when ever in a quarrel with me uses vulgarities, then always mention, RIGHT IN YOUR ****ing blog what nobody loves ue, sometimes i feel its stupid of them to say that, i respect them, but tats childish, i want to change, but how??? if people like them keep saying wat write in ur blog nobody loves ue, wat crap. it was the past me, the one who never had a dream or ambition, now i have, i want to change! i find myself stupid lookin back now, i threw away my past, why keep remindin me of it, somethings is better to keep away from family, coz they usually prefer to trash things out, which is totally not me, i prefer to hide it in me, just like my uncle taught me, trust no one but urself, i do, i trust me, god, music, thats why i only let my deepest secrets goes to them, not even my best friends noes about it, i nvr told them to my best friends in fact, i always noe people will "accidentaly" leak out stuff, whats emo? what creates emo? its create from a person who is lost in life and usually down in life, they prefer to be left alone, but its usually the sun shines in life tat brought back the sun, guess im goin to make a vow! to burn my books when im done wif sec 1 hahas. sec 1 life is interesting, every sec 1 lives the same cycle you have everyday, its how ue live it and decide to live it that decides how interestin ur life is, ya people find wat im sayin crap, it doesnt matter, im the type of guy who prefers to write then talk. so how about urself? have ue done anything interestin?
