ReFlecTion,

28th march 2008,

reflection..... i wish i could suddenly fade away .... people are just always putting too much load on me.... my pain an agony just follows me down my path along the way, wei hao always says im weak, i admit i am weak, i mean he can play drum, play bass clarinet, handsome, refuse to admit his in the wrong, rather not lie and let his friends perish and burn, a dream to be one HOGC's drummer, what about me? anyone know whats my dream? if you ask me to do 3 last thing before i die, i know, i have a dream, a foolish dream, does anyone knows? no... nobody does, i don't wanna told anyone, why? what's the difference, i mean i like just let go of my pass a few weeks ago, change to another bryan, and guess what... my past, it haunts me, and then my heart from a heart that is black and leaking out decomposed feelings, turned into a radiant heart changing everything, then just 1 wrong thing and it triggered everything, the heart that was radiant for a while, turned black and much worser.... i just want to be myself i wish EVERYONE WOULD JUST GIVE ME A break from reality let me drift off to where i want to be, with god, with my 3 GREATEST WISH, and dreams....i still remembered i lost them once..... but found them in the library of memories, all of my past..... because of a question someone asked me.... do u have a dream? it struck me, i could'nt produce an answer, i spent time and time finding my dreams........... found them back, no one ever knew, but in exchange for this dream's i was given a million to billion wounds to my wounded heart, sigh.... i wonder.... i wonder if 1 day .... when the day comes when i will be free from all sorrows and this world, where the day where my wounds would FINALLY be healed... but i can tell and confidently say, it would never come.... i would just be patheticaly standing at the breathes of the world waiting for a miracle,...... a miracle.... that ceases to exist....